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Wednesday, September 2, 2009.
9:13 PM
Well, I am back here again.. Guess I could onli find a place to pour my miserable out here.. Everytime when i come here is always not a good sign.. And well, I see myself here again.........
It had been so long, so long having u by my side make it feel like a routine.. Use to hear your voice, ask about yr work, telling you wat's happening on my side, my life..... Everythings will have a fullstop in the end.. Well, my fullstop come so early..
Ytd it was the first time he said "Lets give each other some time".. I told myself not to cry badly, it will hurt my eyes.. But well.. I still can't control myself.. I burst out immediately... Well, kind of expect when he told me that he find it very hard to manage this relationship.. Maybe I am in the wrong... Maybe I expect too much..
What is the point of crying over a split milk... Seriously till now, sometimes i really dunno what he is thinking.. Sometime i wonder myself, how can he dun contact me for the whole day.. Don't he feel like hearing my voices? Don't he feel something is missing with when we didn't contact??
Maybe this onli happen to me and not him.. To me, I will call him, sms him... I need to contact him.. But well, everyone have different thinking..
He had hurt me badly times and times.. But I still love him afterall... It had been a part of my life.. I live with it.. Maybe its time to wake up from this beautiful dream..
Look through facebook, and realise he had been back to CDSS.. Was taken back.. I actually don't know abt it.. He didn't told me at all.. Where is my posistion in his heart???? Thinking back of wat happening these fews day, realise I am just nth to him..
Claim that I keep crying because he cannot talk to me.. NO! WRONG! Not because of this.. But because of the tone u talk to me.. I am like a stranger to you.. The way u talk to me is like talking to someone which you don even know.. I am your gf!! Y are u treating my like that...
U just leave a deep scar on me... A real deep one............................................................
It had been so long, so long having u by my side make it feel like a routine.. Use to hear your voice, ask about yr work, telling you wat's happening on my side, my life..... Everythings will have a fullstop in the end.. Well, my fullstop come so early..
Ytd it was the first time he said "Lets give each other some time".. I told myself not to cry badly, it will hurt my eyes.. But well.. I still can't control myself.. I burst out immediately... Well, kind of expect when he told me that he find it very hard to manage this relationship.. Maybe I am in the wrong... Maybe I expect too much..
What is the point of crying over a split milk... Seriously till now, sometimes i really dunno what he is thinking.. Sometime i wonder myself, how can he dun contact me for the whole day.. Don't he feel like hearing my voices? Don't he feel something is missing with when we didn't contact??
Maybe this onli happen to me and not him.. To me, I will call him, sms him... I need to contact him.. But well, everyone have different thinking..
He had hurt me badly times and times.. But I still love him afterall... It had been a part of my life.. I live with it.. Maybe its time to wake up from this beautiful dream..
Look through facebook, and realise he had been back to CDSS.. Was taken back.. I actually don't know abt it.. He didn't told me at all.. Where is my posistion in his heart???? Thinking back of wat happening these fews day, realise I am just nth to him..
Claim that I keep crying because he cannot talk to me.. NO! WRONG! Not because of this.. But because of the tone u talk to me.. I am like a stranger to you.. The way u talk to me is like talking to someone which you don even know.. I am your gf!! Y are u treating my like that...
U just leave a deep scar on me... A real deep one............................................................
.I just can't forget you
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Tuesday, May 19, 2009.
11:55 PM
Trouble...
It had been more then 1 week...
A common problem that me and Mr X were worried about..
A common problem that all girls will worried about..
.
We are sure that nothing take place..
But jus our thoughts and mind are flowing the wrong direction...
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I had been so anxious and didn't wan to stress up baby..
But i jus need someone to talk to.. .
Non-trusted person nor a person which I am able to talk to...
.
Had 1, but no confident..
Help!!
Reaction pls!!!
It had been more then 1 week...
A common problem that me and Mr X were worried about..
A common problem that all girls will worried about..
.
We are sure that nothing take place..
But jus our thoughts and mind are flowing the wrong direction...
.
I had been so anxious and didn't wan to stress up baby..
But i jus need someone to talk to.. .
Non-trusted person nor a person which I am able to talk to...
.
Had 1, but no confident..
Help!!
Reaction pls!!!
.I just can't forget you
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Tuesday, April 7, 2009.
10:17 PM
Yes!! I pass my driving..
It should be a happy thing, but now I am not at all..
When I first call Baby and told him this good news.. He was, oh ok reaction. Which made me super disapointed... Even my friends that was like super happy but he was my bf.. which is reaction.. =.=
No celebration at all...He nv even though of celebrate with me..
Everyone pass, they go to eat....
For me, back to home.. And he hardly contact me..
Such a disapointment.. Hais...
It should be a happy thing, but now I am not at all..
When I first call Baby and told him this good news.. He was, oh ok reaction. Which made me super disapointed... Even my friends that was like super happy but he was my bf.. which is reaction.. =.=
No celebration at all...He nv even though of celebrate with me..
Everyone pass, they go to eat....
For me, back to home.. And he hardly contact me..
Such a disapointment.. Hais...
.I just can't forget you
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Tuesday, March 24, 2009.
12:15 AM
Hais.. Today is the first day of me being alone..
DAY 1
When i woke up, I realli cannot believe that I am single..
I cannot believe that he had said that to me..
But well this is the fact...
.
He didn't even look for me..
Then I know this time is serious...
.
What kind of life should i go?
I dunno..
.
Today driving, I nearly bang onto someone..
Well is not my fault, the malay boy jus dash into the road with his bicycle slowly..
And yup, here comes my part..
I didn't brake...
And in my mind, I didn't thought of braking too.
I am dreaming...
Thinking of him during driving which causes these..
.
How long does this going to continue?
Is this realli the final call?
Am I supposed to tell me parent or continue to lie...
.
Sat wat should I do?
If my parent ask y i didn't go out wat should I do?
Hais..
Should I fake and go somewhere?
.
What about going to pula ubin alone?
Is this ok?
DAY 1
When i woke up, I realli cannot believe that I am single..
I cannot believe that he had said that to me..
But well this is the fact...
.
He didn't even look for me..
Then I know this time is serious...
.
What kind of life should i go?
I dunno..
.
Today driving, I nearly bang onto someone..
Well is not my fault, the malay boy jus dash into the road with his bicycle slowly..
And yup, here comes my part..
I didn't brake...
And in my mind, I didn't thought of braking too.
I am dreaming...
Thinking of him during driving which causes these..
.
How long does this going to continue?
Is this realli the final call?
Am I supposed to tell me parent or continue to lie...
.
Sat wat should I do?
If my parent ask y i didn't go out wat should I do?
Hais..
Should I fake and go somewhere?
.
What about going to pula ubin alone?
Is this ok?
.I just can't forget you
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Sunday, March 22, 2009.
11:37 PM
It had been a few days struggling non-stop...
A sudden change in character?
A disappointment...
and now finally he gave up...
And i lost everything..
EVERYTHING!
cause to me, he is everything..
and now gone..
.
He finally cannot take it....
well.. Is this final?
Is this going to end here?
.
No point crying over a spill milk..
.
My mess starting to mess up again...
This is me..
My life
and my fate
A sudden change in character?
A disappointment...
and now finally he gave up...
And i lost everything..
EVERYTHING!
cause to me, he is everything..
and now gone..
.
He finally cannot take it....
well.. Is this final?
Is this going to end here?
.
No point crying over a spill milk..
.
My mess starting to mess up again...
This is me..
My life
and my fate
.I just can't forget you
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Tuesday, March 17, 2009.
11:01 PM
Hais.. Baby had called me that he had quarrel with his dad..
As usual over the years, this is not the first time I heard it liao...
Both father and son are bad tempered..
Both will not give in to one another..
Well, but to be fair..
I know my baby too well liao..
If no one provoke him, nth will happen...
Hais...
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Hope that this will end ba..
If nt baby go out to slp I also worry for him...
.I just can't forget you
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Wednesday, March 4, 2009.
1:04 AM
Fuck.. These few days my distance with baby is getting from bad to worst...
We hardly talk to each other.. And always quarrel for small matter...
I HATE IT!!!
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He dun even treat me nicely...
Talking is always so harsh!!!
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I cannot stand it anymore!!!
cannot anymore!!
CANNOT ANYMORE!!!
CANNOT ANYMORE!!!
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HE IS JUS FOCING ME DAY BY DAY...
I GOING BE MAD SOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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I WAN TO...................................................................
.I just can't forget you
