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Sunday, November 16, 2008.
8:32 PM
Ytd I am dam happy ya.. Celebrate my birthday!!!!!!And was dam happy that baby bought Burberry wallet for me..
Well, I keep saying thanks to him.. haha..
But i jus wan to let him know how much i appreciate that..
well, maybe i shall just stop being too demanding at times and let him have some space to breath ba..
To me this is not jus a gift..
Is about how he feel towards me..
And i can see that he realli love me alot..
He will to spend on me.. Which make me very remorseful..
Baby, I wan to tell u i am sorry for I what i did to u in the pass..
I promise you that I will treat u even better and try to reason out things rather then shouting or rebuke back...
I do all these not because of i receive the wallet but because that I can felt your love towards me..
You can go to an extreme of loving me at times..
Which I believe is what more then I do..
Just leave yr heart with me and I promise I will take good care of it..
I won't hurt your heart and will input more love in it..
I won't be that implusive...
All my love was given to you...
May we everlasting..
I love you.. Deeply from the bottom of my heart...
You are the one that will be going to walk my entire life..
.I just can't forget you
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Friday, November 14, 2008.
10:33 PM
He was at my hse right now.. But everything just is wrong.. Was getting a harsh scolding by him while I trying to know whether is kim bring his friend.. Is that wrong to know? Must he flare up his anger on me? i dunno.. These few days he realli have no tolerant for me at all..
I realli dunno what to do.. I am so lost now.. My heart is heart badly by him.. He is scolding right in front of my face... He is feeling sickening to see my crying in front of him.. But i dun wan to cry.. I jus can't control myself.. If i can I dun even wan to let him see..
My heart is really ach now.. Does he know?? He dunno.. I got a harsh scolding from the person I love most the day before my bd celebration.. What is this man.. An early present for me??
I realli feel like cancelling my celebration.. realli.. things went to this status i dunno what more can i say.. This year to me is so dam sway.. realli sway.. even the night before my bd celebration i kena all these.. Is this what i suppose to get??/
He said he love me and won't scold me, but he jus can't talk to me nicely.. He say he just wan me to treat him nicely but does he treat me nicely too??? I also wan him to treat me nicely.. Is that so diffcult??
Break my heart, relli break my heart..
He wanted to go off right nw to meet his friend.. But my face is like shit now.. I can't go out.. I know he can't stand staying at my hse i single min..
I suddenly feel like leaving.. Had this gust feeling..
I realli dunno what to do.. I am so lost now.. My heart is heart badly by him.. He is scolding right in front of my face... He is feeling sickening to see my crying in front of him.. But i dun wan to cry.. I jus can't control myself.. If i can I dun even wan to let him see..
My heart is really ach now.. Does he know?? He dunno.. I got a harsh scolding from the person I love most the day before my bd celebration.. What is this man.. An early present for me??
I realli feel like cancelling my celebration.. realli.. things went to this status i dunno what more can i say.. This year to me is so dam sway.. realli sway.. even the night before my bd celebration i kena all these.. Is this what i suppose to get??/
He said he love me and won't scold me, but he jus can't talk to me nicely.. He say he just wan me to treat him nicely but does he treat me nicely too??? I also wan him to treat me nicely.. Is that so diffcult??
Break my heart, relli break my heart..
He wanted to go off right nw to meet his friend.. But my face is like shit now.. I can't go out.. I know he can't stand staying at my hse i single min..
I suddenly feel like leaving.. Had this gust feeling..
.I just can't forget you
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Tuesday, November 11, 2008.
6:08 PM
Right now was sitting down on the floor, suppose to study but somehow you came into my mind.
Looking at our pics.. Realise there is a lot of memories between us..
Looking at your face realli make me heart pain.. Making me miss you so much...
Everything U say that i did not remember when u treat me good and onli remember thing that are bad..
Actually u are wrong.. I remember all the good stuff.. I even praise you infront of my friend.. Letting them have a image that u are a gd bf. Everytime you treat me well, I will let ppl know.. But i did not put u down before.. Never.. All the unhappiness i hide it within myself..
And yet U malign me..
This is going to affect my study for long.. I just can't concerate at all ...Not at all..
Looking at our pics.. Realise there is a lot of memories between us..
Looking at your face realli make me heart pain.. Making me miss you so much...
Everything U say that i did not remember when u treat me good and onli remember thing that are bad..
Actually u are wrong.. I remember all the good stuff.. I even praise you infront of my friend.. Letting them have a image that u are a gd bf. Everytime you treat me well, I will let ppl know.. But i did not put u down before.. Never.. All the unhappiness i hide it within myself..
And yet U malign me..
This is going to affect my study for long.. I just can't concerate at all ...Not at all..
.I just can't forget you
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8:21 AM
I Am CRazy!!! Gosh... I can't believe I am thinking of it....... I must be mad.. Early in the morning and i am thinking of of something that a non educated person will do it... gosh.. I though of dying to take revenge.. Wth... Wat am i thinking..
I though of dying so that he will notice the importance of me, he will regret treating me this way, he will cherish me... REGINE LOW, wake up man...
No, I won't think of that anymore, this is crazy..
Anyway, ytd we had another quarrel again... This is becoming more and more common each day.. Is like a norms everyday.. I just hate it.. Is this going to be my life?? In my heart I know that this will not last.. But I just go with the flow..
Should I end this relationship right now? Or should I just bear with it..
He said why nowadays i keep crying, Say i last time also not like that.. But the fact is, from last time till now I do cry.. Just that I cry quietly and will bear it till I hang up the phone.. Is just that you don't know at all!!!
And because of my BD, he keep saving money till everything blame on me.. I dun wan anything.. For 5years, I did not ask for anything all at!!!!!!!!!I dun wan expensive things.. I dun need... I dun expect much from u!!
I am just a simple gal which jus need a guy to treat me well.. I dun need gift, dun wan money from guy, all I wan is that he can treat me better..
Is that so hard???
I wan to give up, but yet i can't let it down... hais.. In clas right now and tears are filling up my eyes.. .........................................
I though of dying so that he will notice the importance of me, he will regret treating me this way, he will cherish me... REGINE LOW, wake up man...
No, I won't think of that anymore, this is crazy..
Anyway, ytd we had another quarrel again... This is becoming more and more common each day.. Is like a norms everyday.. I just hate it.. Is this going to be my life?? In my heart I know that this will not last.. But I just go with the flow..
Should I end this relationship right now? Or should I just bear with it..
He said why nowadays i keep crying, Say i last time also not like that.. But the fact is, from last time till now I do cry.. Just that I cry quietly and will bear it till I hang up the phone.. Is just that you don't know at all!!!
And because of my BD, he keep saving money till everything blame on me.. I dun wan anything.. For 5years, I did not ask for anything all at!!!!!!!!!I dun wan expensive things.. I dun need... I dun expect much from u!!
I am just a simple gal which jus need a guy to treat me well.. I dun need gift, dun wan money from guy, all I wan is that he can treat me better..
Is that so hard???
I wan to give up, but yet i can't let it down... hais.. In clas right now and tears are filling up my eyes.. .........................................
.I just can't forget you
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Sunday, November 9, 2008.
11:45 AM
Ytd went out with Baby, feli, jack, neo and ping to raffle to do a survey and get $25.. After that we went on our seperate ways as baby need to print his stuff..
But hais.. Things become worse.. We had a heat argument outside and eventually he wan to break off with him..
At the moment, my heart was like stop beating.. And tears filled in my eyes right away.. But i had to control myself cause I was in the train.. Was telling myself, this is the end. First time in 5 years he said it to me.. The feeling was hard to explain..
When aimlessly walking around.. Was thinking of where to go next.. No one to talk, dun wan to go home..
Called him and get harsh scolding from him.. But at last he agree to come..
Wanted to use the voucher of a thai resturant but turn out sucky.. Thus went to Borders for NYDC.. quite nice.. All the way he was treating me nice and realli make me confuse..
Feel like playing my feeling.. I dunno wat to do.. He still wan me or not.. But in my heart i sort of have an ans le.. And my ans was correct, he still want me..
I dunno if this will happen again anot.. The harsh way to me, scolding me like nobody business, the hack care attidute...
I really hope for the best ba..
But hais.. Things become worse.. We had a heat argument outside and eventually he wan to break off with him..
At the moment, my heart was like stop beating.. And tears filled in my eyes right away.. But i had to control myself cause I was in the train.. Was telling myself, this is the end. First time in 5 years he said it to me.. The feeling was hard to explain..
When aimlessly walking around.. Was thinking of where to go next.. No one to talk, dun wan to go home..
Called him and get harsh scolding from him.. But at last he agree to come..
Wanted to use the voucher of a thai resturant but turn out sucky.. Thus went to Borders for NYDC.. quite nice.. All the way he was treating me nice and realli make me confuse..
Feel like playing my feeling.. I dunno wat to do.. He still wan me or not.. But in my heart i sort of have an ans le.. And my ans was correct, he still want me..
I dunno if this will happen again anot.. The harsh way to me, scolding me like nobody business, the hack care attidute...
I really hope for the best ba..
.I just can't forget you
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Friday, November 7, 2008.
6:47 PM
It is just another stupid friday.. From monday I was so dam looking forward to today.. But it just a let down.. All my happy hope was GONE! GONE! GONE! Ytd was suppose to celebrate our anniversary and it change to today.. is TODAY TODAY!
But somehow that person busy again AGIAN AGAIN.. yes, is jus again!! I really dunno wat i am thinking.. How i wish he was here.. How i wish we meet up.. Yes, I am contradicting myyself! Yes, i know!
WHY??? BECAUSE that person say that he can come but he need to do his work here.. So wat does this mean.. Like i force you to come like that.. No NEED! Since you so busy then come for wat.. Meet up also so xin ku.. Sometimes jus feel like ending it. Stupid*
U may think, "ya, i say i wan to come le is you yourself dun wan de then now angry for wat?" But have you think of my feeling anot?? Because of me you rush your work. Because of me you had to do your work at my hse.. How i feel?? Honour?? NO K! I feel that i drag you down! Seriously..
Sometimes i think that this path is having an dead end soon.. Just that the path is still long, we can't see if in front there is road or dead end..
I had been tearing these few days.. for wat?? dun deserve it man.. I am not enjoying this relationship at all, it is making my feeling worse.
Tml is the onli day we meet for this week. And i realli hope i could be happy tml.. but.. shall see ba..
All my instructure ask about my relationship.. How long? And all was shock.. I mean, there is nth to shock abt, because all the bitterness you all can't see.. Onli I know, god knows.. Even you also dunno..
I jus feel super super uneasy now.. Is fri and I am at home .. Nt with friends, nt with him.. Not with him by my side..
HOLD ON TIGHT!!! MUST HOLD ON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
But somehow that person busy again AGIAN AGAIN.. yes, is jus again!! I really dunno wat i am thinking.. How i wish he was here.. How i wish we meet up.. Yes, I am contradicting myyself! Yes, i know!
WHY??? BECAUSE that person say that he can come but he need to do his work here.. So wat does this mean.. Like i force you to come like that.. No NEED! Since you so busy then come for wat.. Meet up also so xin ku.. Sometimes jus feel like ending it. Stupid*
U may think, "ya, i say i wan to come le is you yourself dun wan de then now angry for wat?" But have you think of my feeling anot?? Because of me you rush your work. Because of me you had to do your work at my hse.. How i feel?? Honour?? NO K! I feel that i drag you down! Seriously..
Sometimes i think that this path is having an dead end soon.. Just that the path is still long, we can't see if in front there is road or dead end..
I had been tearing these few days.. for wat?? dun deserve it man.. I am not enjoying this relationship at all, it is making my feeling worse.
Tml is the onli day we meet for this week. And i realli hope i could be happy tml.. but.. shall see ba..
All my instructure ask about my relationship.. How long? And all was shock.. I mean, there is nth to shock abt, because all the bitterness you all can't see.. Onli I know, god knows.. Even you also dunno..
I jus feel super super uneasy now.. Is fri and I am at home .. Nt with friends, nt with him.. Not with him by my side..
HOLD ON TIGHT!!! MUST HOLD ON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
.I just can't forget you
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Thursday, November 6, 2008.
8:15 PM
UPDATE>>>
I dunno wat to say nor i am spechless..
Just did this and trying to express myself.. hais...
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I dunno wat to say nor i am spechless..Just did this and trying to express myself.. hais...
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Hais... Today is suppose to be a happy day for both of us.. But to me, it seems like nth special.. Nt happy at all.. It jus like any other normal day.. =(
He finally sms me to wish me.. But, when i see, i do not feel happy at all.. Not at all... What is the point? To me, i felt that he sms for the sake of replying me of what i had sent.. The msg filled with no feeling at all.. I can sense that.. It is jus a rough sms..
Think of it my heart ach.. hais..
And yet again, he is busy again.. Will this get strain on our relationship? I guess so, but i hope not..
And I dun wan to stress him with all my thoughts.. This is the onli way i guess i can let it out ba..
cry*
He finally sms me to wish me.. But, when i see, i do not feel happy at all.. Not at all... What is the point? To me, i felt that he sms for the sake of replying me of what i had sent.. The msg filled with no feeling at all.. I can sense that.. It is jus a rough sms..
Think of it my heart ach.. hais..
And yet again, he is busy again.. Will this get strain on our relationship? I guess so, but i hope not..
And I dun wan to stress him with all my thoughts.. This is the onli way i guess i can let it out ba..
cry*
.I just can't forget you
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8:20 AM
NOOOOO I HATE THIS HATE THIS!!!
Ytd I cried badly... Told myself on the previous post that hope that this month I will not teared again but hais..
Sometimes things become back and is uncontrollable.. I had the feeling.. The hack care attitude seems to be back again.. Sometimes you might not feel it but, it really hurts me.. Although there is no harsh words going on but yr actions just made me sad..
Sometimes I was thinking, how long will I hold on? I wan it to be forever!!
But did I regret it?? No i know i did not.. But somehow, every communication cause a quarrel =(
Happy 4yrs 9mthsAnniversary...
Ytd slept at 12plus.. Was lying on the bed from 10 plus to 12 plus.. Thinking all sort of things.. And even waited to see if he will sms me a anniversary msg...
But disapointed comes in the end..
No smses..
No nth...
Since last year, he had stop wishing me till I wish him first.. Of course he wishes me back but that was a "reply"..
I dun wan a reply.. I wan a sms that he wanted to send, not because of me sending him..
I dunno what am i thinking...
I suggested not to meet because I think of his work.. And really wanted him to do his work well.. Yes, Although I will be a little unhappy as this always happen but i dun wan to be a burden to him..
Often because of me, he delayed his work or try to rush his work to meet me.. hais..
I reali felt a burden to him.. Realli!!!!!!!!!
I can't help in his work..
And he had to spent time accompany me..
Imagine if he is single without me..
He might focus more and do better in his study...
Even save more money and wouldn't spend on me..
Just hope my life could be better ma...
Ytd I cried badly... Told myself on the previous post that hope that this month I will not teared again but hais..
Sometimes things become back and is uncontrollable.. I had the feeling.. The hack care attitude seems to be back again.. Sometimes you might not feel it but, it really hurts me.. Although there is no harsh words going on but yr actions just made me sad..
Sometimes I was thinking, how long will I hold on? I wan it to be forever!!
But did I regret it?? No i know i did not.. But somehow, every communication cause a quarrel =(
Happy 4yrs 9mthsAnniversary...
Ytd slept at 12plus.. Was lying on the bed from 10 plus to 12 plus.. Thinking all sort of things.. And even waited to see if he will sms me a anniversary msg...
But disapointed comes in the end..
No smses..
No nth...
Since last year, he had stop wishing me till I wish him first.. Of course he wishes me back but that was a "reply"..
I dun wan a reply.. I wan a sms that he wanted to send, not because of me sending him..
I dunno what am i thinking...
I suggested not to meet because I think of his work.. And really wanted him to do his work well.. Yes, Although I will be a little unhappy as this always happen but i dun wan to be a burden to him..
Often because of me, he delayed his work or try to rush his work to meet me.. hais..
I reali felt a burden to him.. Realli!!!!!!!!!
I can't help in his work..
And he had to spent time accompany me..
Imagine if he is single without me..
He might focus more and do better in his study...
Even save more money and wouldn't spend on me..
Just hope my life could be better ma...
.I just can't forget you
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Wednesday, November 5, 2008.
6:19 PM
BOO~~~ Tml is not meeting baby le... Hais.. sad..sad..sad..
Actually today going to meet baby de but hong shan dun have the uniform so in the end nv meet le.. =(
Tml is our anniversary, suppose to meet de, but he finish sch at 5pm by the time meet me 6 plus liao.. somemore next day still got school so not meeting le =(((((((
Had to wait till friday then can meet.. Somemore friday i got driving.. Onli can meet after that.. But no diff la.. cause I end at 5.20pm..
Hais.. busy busy... everyone is busy..
But nvm la.. also good la.. Like that save more money =)
Actually today going to meet baby de but hong shan dun have the uniform so in the end nv meet le.. =(
Tml is our anniversary, suppose to meet de, but he finish sch at 5pm by the time meet me 6 plus liao.. somemore next day still got school so not meeting le =(((((((
Had to wait till friday then can meet.. Somemore friday i got driving.. Onli can meet after that.. But no diff la.. cause I end at 5.20pm..
Hais.. busy busy... everyone is busy..
But nvm la.. also good la.. Like that save more money =)
.I just can't forget you
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Tuesday, November 4, 2008.
1:34 PM
Didn't went sch today.. Stomach dam pain la.. stupid*
Anyway, today on the way to mrt, was thinking of some stuff..
Dunno why, suddenly think of baby driving... He had enrol for so so so long le.. But now, jus wouldn't want to step ahead and stop it there.. There are many times I wanted to let him know..Yet would always ended up quarreling and though that I am stressing him.. hais.
Actually there are realli times that he is free and is able to learn.. But he just spend it on somewhere else.. Understand that sometime he accompany me.. But everyone need to plan their stuff.. And NO planning = fail..
wanted to bring up alot of time but hais..
Sometimes seeing friends boyfriend fetching them to somewhere make me feel a little jealous.. Seeing them saying bye to me and standing there to wait for ppl fetch make me feel jealous..
When asking them y dun u go learn driving, and their reply is, " No need lah, got ppl fetch learn for wat".. -.-
I also like ppl to fetch, i also want to enjoy sitting next to the driver.. Much actual fact is driving is tiring.. U have to keep focusing here and there.. Making you tired in the end.. But wat to do? I jus had to depend myself... Cause I wan to sit a car.. Doesn't matter is a he or a she who drive.. =)
Anyway, saying so much here is just to make me feel better.. Cause I can't find anyone to talk to.. Talking this to him will give me hell.. Saying it to me friend?? No Way! How can a couple matters letting outside ppl to know.. So, lucky I still have this blog =)
Anyway, today on the way to mrt, was thinking of some stuff..
Dunno why, suddenly think of baby driving... He had enrol for so so so long le.. But now, jus wouldn't want to step ahead and stop it there.. There are many times I wanted to let him know..Yet would always ended up quarreling and though that I am stressing him.. hais.
Actually there are realli times that he is free and is able to learn.. But he just spend it on somewhere else.. Understand that sometime he accompany me.. But everyone need to plan their stuff.. And NO planning = fail..
wanted to bring up alot of time but hais..
Sometimes seeing friends boyfriend fetching them to somewhere make me feel a little jealous.. Seeing them saying bye to me and standing there to wait for ppl fetch make me feel jealous..
When asking them y dun u go learn driving, and their reply is, " No need lah, got ppl fetch learn for wat".. -.-
I also like ppl to fetch, i also want to enjoy sitting next to the driver.. Much actual fact is driving is tiring.. U have to keep focusing here and there.. Making you tired in the end.. But wat to do? I jus had to depend myself... Cause I wan to sit a car.. Doesn't matter is a he or a she who drive.. =)
Anyway, saying so much here is just to make me feel better.. Cause I can't find anyone to talk to.. Talking this to him will give me hell.. Saying it to me friend?? No Way! How can a couple matters letting outside ppl to know.. So, lucky I still have this blog =)
.I just can't forget you
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Monday, November 3, 2008.
9:36 PM
Today baby went to town to buy his stuff.. And also look out for burberry wallet for me.. Althought I am happy to heard that and also more then happy if I can receive it but it is just very expensive..
Nice right.. The goods is from jap.. And it selling on the china web.. Calculate the price and is 400 plus.. Ex ba.. And stated it is real, if fake then u can go down to the actual shop and check..
I dunno wana to get such a good wallet but in the end he suffer.. As if he really buy for me then he got no money left le.. But I like the wallet.. Hmmm, if my bd he didn't buy then i shall work and got the money then i buy for myself ba..
Saw it on the china website..
Nice right.. The goods is from jap.. And it selling on the china web.. Calculate the price and is 400 plus.. Ex ba.. And stated it is real, if fake then u can go down to the actual shop and check..
Well, to me, I still dunno is it real or not.. But from pics it look real la..
This is another wan from another website.. 
Different is the first wan is not all glossy but the second wan is.. Which is real or fake? Or both are real and they have different type..
Anyway, both are so nice la..
.I just can't forget you
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2:01 PM
YES!!!!!!! It finally over!!!!!!!
Ytd Baby come over to my hse.. Yes I called him "Baby".. He is always one..
Said wana scan his report books.. But ended up... hmm blah blah and he prop me a question.. Which is dam surprise me.. Cause it mean to be on Wed but he just planed it!
And of course, in my heart I forgive him long ago le.. Sadly, I cannot enjoy the period of being woo le.. =p bad sia*
I think he is the onli guy that ask this question on bed.. lol..
Boy, you will never disapointed me with full of surprise =)
No tears anymore =) Hope I won't cry for this whole month...
Ytd Baby come over to my hse.. Yes I called him "Baby".. He is always one..
Said wana scan his report books.. But ended up... hmm blah blah and he prop me a question.. Which is dam surprise me.. Cause it mean to be on Wed but he just planed it!
And of course, in my heart I forgive him long ago le.. Sadly, I cannot enjoy the period of being woo le.. =p bad sia*
I think he is the onli guy that ask this question on bed.. lol..
Boy, you will never disapointed me with full of surprise =)
No tears anymore =) Hope I won't cry for this whole month...
.I just can't forget you
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Sunday, November 2, 2008.
7:58 PM
Yes yes! Ytd night I was dam happy.. Although he really made me worried as I could not contact him but, oh tian~ we finally talk on the phone.. And pretty long..
I was contridict myself, wanted to break off with him but I still trying my ways to see him or contact him. Ai yo, i jus can run away from his clutches la... Well, nvm, at least i enjoy being with him..
And and and he said he going to woo me back.. haha, I gona enjoy being woo by ppl again.. =p but of course i will go back to him de lo.. =)
And and and, now he is on his way to my house!!! Yes! But i waited for so long sia.. Everytime so slow de.. hais.. Now 8pm le.. the later he reach, the shorter time I can spent with him.. =( Faster come lei..
I was contridict myself, wanted to break off with him but I still trying my ways to see him or contact him. Ai yo, i jus can run away from his clutches la... Well, nvm, at least i enjoy being with him..
And and and he said he going to woo me back.. haha, I gona enjoy being woo by ppl again.. =p but of course i will go back to him de lo.. =)
And and and, now he is on his way to my house!!! Yes! But i waited for so long sia.. Everytime so slow de.. hais.. Now 8pm le.. the later he reach, the shorter time I can spent with him.. =( Faster come lei..
.I just can't forget you
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1:39 AM
Today is another day of my being alone.. Went to celebrate lyn bd.. In the end, he turn up.. Sadly the sits are not in a good arrangment for us.. Me and he sit one end to one end.. Never talk at all.. Nt even eyes contact, till the last min, when he ask go where, and i onli look at him and said, "Hui Jia".. I fill with full of regretion right now!!!
Shouldn't I talk to him more? Shouldn't i treat him as a normal friend.. I dunno why i never even talk to him.. I feel so stupid.. REAL STUPID.. what am i holding back?
I am angry with him.. In the first place he say that he wana to meet after lyn bd if he is not going.. But after that he went.. And never even talk to me.. NEVER NEVER NEVER!
Though that he wana to talk to be after dinner about us.. But before that, he even find his own programme already.. I really got nth to say.. Seems like it is really game over this time.. Really game over..
Cry..
Shouldn't I talk to him more? Shouldn't i treat him as a normal friend.. I dunno why i never even talk to him.. I feel so stupid.. REAL STUPID.. what am i holding back?
I am angry with him.. In the first place he say that he wana to meet after lyn bd if he is not going.. But after that he went.. And never even talk to me.. NEVER NEVER NEVER!
Though that he wana to talk to be after dinner about us.. But before that, he even find his own programme already.. I really got nth to say.. Seems like it is really game over this time.. Really game over..
Cry..
.I just can't forget you
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Saturday, November 1, 2008.
2:27 AM
Now was 2.30am.. Was browsing all the pics that taken with Xavier.. Listening to music.. As usual, tears flowing down non-stop..
Here are some pics which I really like..
This are really a few pics that I really really like..
.I just can't forget you
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1:00 AM
Today morning, yet again, I broke up with xavier.. I had been trying very very hard to maintain our relationship.. But, ended it still won't last... hais..
Thinking of all the moments we are together, looking at all the pics, it really made me teared.. And wat i can say now is i REGRETED!
Y am i so weak??
Y am i so impulsive??
Y i always mess things up??
Y u jus can't treat me better??
Y? Y? Y?
Crying daily is not the way! I had to get myself out of this! But wait, is this really the end?? Will I be back with him? Is this going to last forever? Am I losing him forever?
I miss his hug..
I miss his kisses..
I miss the smell of him..
I miss everything single thing of him..
Had not get to see him for days.. Since he went to Nafa, times for us is really lesser and lesser.. Being busy everyday.. I really felt negleted..
Will i be back with him? I wonder...
What are you doing now? Who are u with? R u thinking of me? Do u miss me?
Although it had jus beening broke up this morning, and now i just regret..
If i am going to wait till mid night, will i be able to see you online??
Thinking of all the moments we are together, looking at all the pics, it really made me teared.. And wat i can say now is i REGRETED!
Y am i so weak??
Y am i so impulsive??
Y i always mess things up??
Y u jus can't treat me better??
Y? Y? Y?
Crying daily is not the way! I had to get myself out of this! But wait, is this really the end?? Will I be back with him? Is this going to last forever? Am I losing him forever?
I miss his hug..
I miss his kisses..
I miss the smell of him..
I miss everything single thing of him..
Had not get to see him for days.. Since he went to Nafa, times for us is really lesser and lesser.. Being busy everyday.. I really felt negleted..
Will i be back with him? I wonder...
What are you doing now? Who are u with? R u thinking of me? Do u miss me?
Although it had jus beening broke up this morning, and now i just regret..
If i am going to wait till mid night, will i be able to see you online??
.I just can't forget you
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12:40 AM
Finally I had my personal blog.. This would be the only way to write out all my rant and without people finding out.. Peace finally~~ And well, this post started on 31 Oct!
.I just can't forget you
