I Am CRazy!!! Gosh... I can't believe I am thinking of it....... I must be mad.. Early in the morning and i am thinking of of something that a non educated person will do it... gosh.. I though of dying to take revenge.. Wth... Wat am i thinking..

I though of dying so that he will notice the importance of me, he will regret treating me this way, he will cherish me... REGINE LOW, wake up man...

No, I won't think of that anymore, this is crazy..

Anyway, ytd we had another quarrel again... This is becoming more and more common each day.. Is like a norms everyday.. I just hate it.. Is this going to be my life?? In my heart I know that this will not last.. But I just go with the flow..

Should I end this relationship right now? Or should I just bear with it..

He said why nowadays i keep crying, Say i last time also not like that.. But the fact is, from last time till now I do cry.. Just that I cry quietly and will bear it till I hang up the phone.. Is just that you don't know at all!!!

And because of my BD, he keep saving money till everything blame on me.. I dun wan anything.. For 5years, I did not ask for anything all at!!!!!!!!!I dun wan expensive things.. I dun need... I dun expect much from u!!

I am just a simple gal which jus need a guy to treat me well.. I dun need gift, dun wan money from guy, all I wan is that he can treat me better..

Is that so hard???

I wan to give up, but yet i can't let it down... hais.. In clas right now and tears are filling up my eyes.. .........................................