It is just another stupid friday.. From monday I was so dam looking forward to today.. But it just a let down.. All my happy hope was GONE! GONE! GONE! Ytd was suppose to celebrate our anniversary and it change to today.. is TODAY TODAY!

But somehow that person busy again AGIAN AGAIN.. yes, is jus again!! I really dunno wat i am thinking.. How i wish he was here.. How i wish we meet up.. Yes, I am contradicting myyself! Yes, i know!

WHY??? BECAUSE that person say that he can come but he need to do his work here.. So wat does this mean.. Like i force you to come like that.. No NEED! Since you so busy then come for wat.. Meet up also so xin ku.. Sometimes jus feel like ending it. Stupid*

U may think, "ya, i say i wan to come le is you yourself dun wan de then now angry for wat?" But have you think of my feeling anot?? Because of me you rush your work. Because of me you had to do your work at my hse.. How i feel?? Honour?? NO K! I feel that i drag you down! Seriously..

Sometimes i think that this path is having an dead end soon.. Just that the path is still long, we can't see if in front there is road or dead end..

I had been tearing these few days.. for wat?? dun deserve it man.. I am not enjoying this relationship at all, it is making my feeling worse.

Tml is the onli day we meet for this week. And i realli hope i could be happy tml.. but.. shall see ba..

All my instructure ask about my relationship.. How long? And all was shock.. I mean, there is nth to shock abt, because all the bitterness you all can't see.. Onli I know, god knows.. Even you also dunno..

I jus feel super super uneasy now.. Is fri and I am at home .. Nt with friends, nt with him.. Not with him by my side..

HOLD ON TIGHT!!! MUST HOLD ON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!