NOOOOO I HATE THIS HATE THIS!!!

Ytd I cried badly... Told myself on the previous post that hope that this month I will not teared again but hais..

Sometimes things become back and is uncontrollable.. I had the feeling.. The hack care attitude seems to be back again.. Sometimes you might not feel it but, it really hurts me.. Although there is no harsh words going on but yr actions just made me sad..

Sometimes I was thinking, how long will I hold on? I wan it to be forever!!
But did I regret it?? No i know i did not.. But somehow, every communication cause a quarrel =(

Happy 4yrs 9mthsAnniversary...
Ytd slept at 12plus.. Was lying on the bed from 10 plus to 12 plus.. Thinking all sort of things.. And even waited to see if he will sms me a anniversary msg...
But disapointed comes in the end..
No smses..
No nth...
Since last year, he had stop wishing me till I wish him first.. Of course he wishes me back but that was a "reply"..

I dun wan a reply.. I wan a sms that he wanted to send, not because of me sending him..

I dunno what am i thinking...

I suggested not to meet because I think of his work.. And really wanted him to do his work well.. Yes, Although I will be a little unhappy as this always happen but i dun wan to be a burden to him..

Often because of me, he delayed his work or try to rush his work to meet me.. hais..
I reali felt a burden to him.. Realli!!!!!!!!!
I can't help in his work..
And he had to spent time accompany me..

Imagine if he is single without me..
He might focus more and do better in his study...
Even save more money and wouldn't spend on me..

Just hope my life could be better ma...