Today is another day of my being alone.. Went to celebrate lyn bd.. In the end, he turn up.. Sadly the sits are not in a good arrangment for us.. Me and he sit one end to one end.. Never talk at all.. Nt even eyes contact, till the last min, when he ask go where, and i onli look at him and said, "Hui Jia".. I fill with full of regretion right now!!!

Shouldn't I talk to him more? Shouldn't i treat him as a normal friend.. I dunno why i never even talk to him.. I feel so stupid.. REAL STUPID.. what am i holding back?

I am angry with him.. In the first place he say that he wana to meet after lyn bd if he is not going.. But after that he went.. And never even talk to me.. NEVER NEVER NEVER!

Though that he wana to talk to be after dinner about us.. But before that, he even find his own programme already.. I really got nth to say.. Seems like it is really game over this time.. Really game over..

Cry..