I cried again.. This time i cried badly.. real bad.. I feel so lost today.. Many things had happen and i realise i had to handle myself.. There is no one that i could keep bugging non-stop.. Friends had their own things to do too!

Although I am very glad and happy that there are so many ppl stand by me.. Especially esther and ros.. They keep me accompany throughout the journey by phone and msn.. Esther even help me to set a plot on the person... Thanks so much.. Not to forget feli and yuik ting..

But eventually I broke down.. Due to insecurity, tiredness, feeling innoneces and fear.. I dun understand why people would come and find trouble on the tag.. I feel so innosences..

First, i dunno her...
Second, she dunno me..
Third, she got nth to do with me...
Fourth, what is her motive...
Fifth, onli esther know her...

Baby are not here when i need him the most.. I feel so long.. Although there are friends but it cannot compare with a guy to guide u along... The feeling is differnet..

Having headach for like 1 week already.. And it still continue.. Everyday I had sleepless night... I am so helpless..

I feel so lonely.. Still got to manage 2 blog shop... Not working anymore.. Decided to focus on my business.. hais..

God, what can I do? But i know i am bless with my friends around me.. Baby, today is jus the 3rd day.. u got 11 more days before you come back.. I need u so much.. I had been crying everyday since the day you gone..

I hope there won't be any trouble anymore...

Tears are falling down my cheeks..