Meet him after school to watch movie today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DAM HAPPY!!! When I was driving i was like hoping the time to end faster so i can go watch movie with him... Although i dun even know what i am watching but i still looking forward to it...

And yes, I was Transporter 3!! Nice show =)

Today I do feel myself being restricted from him. Sorry. I just dunno why. I want to get close to him and i feel so comfortable with him around me but when i think of what he had say previously, I totally restricted him from myself..

It really hurts me of what he had said eariler... He said that he gt nth to talk to me at night, saying that there is no point talking everyday ( after 5yrs) stupid* and say that no point meeting cause we are seeing each other everyday. And also said that sat dun like to go out cause i am the want who shop nt him and he dun see a need to accompany me...

All this, hurts me lots............ I just keep remember this when he get close to me..

And i just cried as I walked back home just now.

What is the reason?
1. Time spend together are too short and how i wich he could send me him but never!
2. I try to restrict myself from going near to him because i dunno what suitation are we!
3. Whenever I think of what he had said, i hate him
4. I hate him so much yet everytime i look at him i wan to be close to him.

Yes, i am contradicting myself and i know it...
What can i do?

seeing him today is enough for me.. At least I can get to spend my night with him.. (although is short)