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Friday, February 20, 2009.
10:55 PM
These few days was not very good with him.. Hais.. Keep quarrelling over small matters.. And also he keep shouting at me...
Actually was suppose to meet de... But at last, didn't...
1) due to the quarrel ytd..
But after we was alright, yet we still didn't meet...
2) His laptop spoil need to go funan IT mall...
3) After that he is with his mum...
So therefore, everything jus off..
Went alone to BBDC instead with him... Hais, and to my dismay, I need to book 2 lesson before I can book my test date... What a waste trip for me...
And instead of a nice dinner with him, I ate maggie noodle at home with meatball and eggs.. Hais..
What a fri I had today...
This year indeed wasn't a good year for relationship...
Actually was suppose to meet de... But at last, didn't...
1) due to the quarrel ytd..
But after we was alright, yet we still didn't meet...
2) His laptop spoil need to go funan IT mall...
3) After that he is with his mum...
So therefore, everything jus off..
Went alone to BBDC instead with him... Hais, and to my dismay, I need to book 2 lesson before I can book my test date... What a waste trip for me...
And instead of a nice dinner with him, I ate maggie noodle at home with meatball and eggs.. Hais..
What a fri I had today...
This year indeed wasn't a good year for relationship...
.I just can't forget you
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Tuesday, February 3, 2009.
9:35 PM
Hais, I always got the tendency to chat with him.. Everytime see him online, i feel like chatting with him.. But he is always so cold towards me..
Although we onli broke up for 2 days but to me like for a long time le.. Hais..
I tend to type message in msn and delete it away.. I tend to find excuess to talk to him.. But he is forever that busy... Hais..
I miss him through the night.. Wanted to see him..
Hais..
I wan to buy marcoons for him to eat.. But no chances anymore..
Although we onli broke up for 2 days but to me like for a long time le.. Hais..
I tend to type message in msn and delete it away.. I tend to find excuess to talk to him.. But he is forever that busy... Hais..
I miss him through the night.. Wanted to see him..
Hais..
I wan to buy marcoons for him to eat.. But no chances anymore..
Every night I was thinking about
the things we had said,
the things we had done,
the place we had go,
the pics we took,
the topic that we talk about
and the gift we had give each other..
hais...
.I just can't forget you
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Monday, February 2, 2009.
10:18 PM
Hais..
Went out with Esther today, I guess if I continue to stay at home I will just BUST out!
Decided to cut my hair to get a new look .. wana get rid of all the bad things that happen right from the start of 2009..
People do believe that new year ned to cut hair.. So well, I just feel that all the bad luck are with me now.. From day 1 of 2009 till now, eveything is so unlucky..
- laptop spoiled
- hp gt little problem
- headach
- sick
- quarrel with him
- now, broke up
I wan to get rid of all this shit.. Maybe a shorter hair will let me feel lighter as my heart is having a weight now...
Decided to go to mac shop and see wheather can get anyting for him anot.. So decided to buy a mac caseing.. Dunno how to give him or the reason to give.. Duno should I wrap up or not.. Duno how I going to pass to him.. Hais.. Anniversary is this fri and now is gone.. But in my heart, that day is still my anniversary day..
Received sms from Joey and ask me to work.. But on V-day I am working.. Hais, anyway this yr also no v-day for me.. Also no one to celebrate with.. And esther wana to celebrate on that day.. Well, maybe I just work full shift ba..
Promise him that I would find a guy within 3 weeks, but i doubt I am able to do that.. I dun wan to cheat myself.. I still love him.. I dun wan to cheapen myself.
Problem 1: where should I go this fri?
Problem 2: How should I celebrate my solo anni?
Problem 3: How Do i pass him the gift?
Problem 4: Should I wrap it since he already know wat is it?
Problem 5: How about the book? Should I give him or Should I write it?
Problem 6: How is myV-day this year?
And I can feel that this time is for real.. Didn't even mention to anyone at all.. Till now no one know about us. Decided not to say till I can confirm with myself..
I FEEL SO LOST NOW!!!!
Went out with Esther today, I guess if I continue to stay at home I will just BUST out!
Decided to cut my hair to get a new look .. wana get rid of all the bad things that happen right from the start of 2009..
People do believe that new year ned to cut hair.. So well, I just feel that all the bad luck are with me now.. From day 1 of 2009 till now, eveything is so unlucky..
- laptop spoiled
- hp gt little problem
- headach
- sick
- quarrel with him
- now, broke up
I wan to get rid of all this shit.. Maybe a shorter hair will let me feel lighter as my heart is having a weight now...
Decided to go to mac shop and see wheather can get anyting for him anot.. So decided to buy a mac caseing.. Dunno how to give him or the reason to give.. Duno should I wrap up or not.. Duno how I going to pass to him.. Hais.. Anniversary is this fri and now is gone.. But in my heart, that day is still my anniversary day..
Received sms from Joey and ask me to work.. But on V-day I am working.. Hais, anyway this yr also no v-day for me.. Also no one to celebrate with.. And esther wana to celebrate on that day.. Well, maybe I just work full shift ba..
Promise him that I would find a guy within 3 weeks, but i doubt I am able to do that.. I dun wan to cheat myself.. I still love him.. I dun wan to cheapen myself.
Problem 1: where should I go this fri?
Problem 2: How should I celebrate my solo anni?
Problem 3: How Do i pass him the gift?
Problem 4: Should I wrap it since he already know wat is it?
Problem 5: How about the book? Should I give him or Should I write it?
Problem 6: How is myV-day this year?
And I can feel that this time is for real.. Didn't even mention to anyone at all.. Till now no one know about us. Decided not to say till I can confirm with myself..
I FEEL SO LOST NOW!!!!
.I just can't forget you
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12:42 AM
Arhgghghghg!!!!!!!!!!!! JUS NOW TYPE SO LONG NOW
GONE,
NEED TO RETYPE AGAIN..
MAKING FUN OF ME AH!!!
I AM SO DAM REGRET NOW!!!
I HATE REGINE... HATE HER MIND.. HATE HER DECISION
HATE HER MOUTH TOOO!!
Everytime, I will be full of regretation...
I always want to leave him, and now, I get it... But I am not happy and instead I am crying the whole day... Arhgg!! I want him back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Right now, fri coming.. Should I get something for him? Although we are nt together le but should I just give him a gift?
But wat to give?? Will he accept?
Also duno wat to give.
Analyse here ba>>>
Things that he had:
- wallet
-shirt
-bag
-shoes
-belt
-perfume
-watch
-mp3
Things that I gave before:
- perfume
- mp3
- bag
-shirt
-shoes
-card
-photo album
-necklace
-bracelet
Things had I cannot afford:
- phone
-camera
- things over $100
Hmmm>> Things that I could get
- card reader?? (too little le)
- shirt? ( common)
- white 3/4 pants? (can consider but need him to try)
- Black button shirt? ( from POA)
- Polo Shirt ? ( dunno get from where)
- Mac casing ( dun have his model)
- Hand make item?? (every year also have that, not practical)
-Bag? ( he got crumple le)
- Boxer!!! ( nt at this time =.=)
- mac mouse? ( dunno how much, he also dun use mouse)
Hai yo, what else can I get..
He had everything.. And things that I wan to get for him need him to be around.. And he worst part is we are not together anymore.. Will he accept??
Nvm, just follow my hear... At least I do my part, I know wat i am doing.. Follow my heart will nv go wrong..
Tml stil need to go out with esther and ros...
Cut HAir???
GONE,
NEED TO RETYPE AGAIN..
MAKING FUN OF ME AH!!!
I AM SO DAM REGRET NOW!!!
I HATE REGINE... HATE HER MIND.. HATE HER DECISION
HATE HER MOUTH TOOO!!
Everytime, I will be full of regretation...
I always want to leave him, and now, I get it... But I am not happy and instead I am crying the whole day... Arhgg!! I want him back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Right now, fri coming.. Should I get something for him? Although we are nt together le but should I just give him a gift?
But wat to give?? Will he accept?
Also duno wat to give.
Analyse here ba>>>
Things that he had:
- wallet
-shirt
-bag
-shoes
-belt
-perfume
-watch
-mp3
Things that I gave before:
- perfume
- mp3
- bag
-shirt
-shoes
-card
-photo album
-necklace
-bracelet
Things had I cannot afford:
- phone
-camera
- things over $100
Hmmm>> Things that I could get
- card reader?? (too little le)
- shirt? ( common)
- white 3/4 pants? (can consider but need him to try)
- Black button shirt? ( from POA)
- Polo Shirt ? ( dunno get from where)
- Mac casing ( dun have his model)
- Hand make item?? (every year also have that, not practical)
-Bag? ( he got crumple le)
- Boxer!!! ( nt at this time =.=)
- mac mouse? ( dunno how much, he also dun use mouse)
Hai yo, what else can I get..
He had everything.. And things that I wan to get for him need him to be around.. And he worst part is we are not together anymore.. Will he accept??
Nvm, just follow my hear... At least I do my part, I know wat i am doing.. Follow my heart will nv go wrong..
Tml stil need to go out with esther and ros...
Cut HAir???
.I just can't forget you
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Sunday, February 1, 2009.
5:23 PM
A break through!!
Is this time for real??? Hais.. I HATE THIS FEELING!!! IT IS ALWAYS CONTRADICTING!!!
I feel that I had cheapen myself just to make him angry.. Jus to spike on him..
I am so wrong, so dam wrong..
I hate my mouth, hate my heart...
I hate my character, hate the way I am..
Now, he is gone... Real gone..
I had no one to watch movie with...
I had no one to share with me my sorrow or happiness...
I had no one to share with me all the pictures that I had took..
I had no one to give gifts..
My most important aniversary this jus in 5 days time, my Valentine Day is gone..
NO ONE to celebrate with me..
Wat about the ring on my hand??
Guess I will always wear it till I forget him ba..
My heart is bleeding now.. Bleeding hard now..
Is this wat I really wan??
I always want to had a break up with him.. I always cannot tolerate him..
But when this comes, i full of regretation..
Am I depending too much on him?
Am I realli love him too much?
Or this is just a norm for me?
Hais...
Is this time for real??? Hais.. I HATE THIS FEELING!!! IT IS ALWAYS CONTRADICTING!!!
I feel that I had cheapen myself just to make him angry.. Jus to spike on him..
I am so wrong, so dam wrong..
I hate my mouth, hate my heart...
I hate my character, hate the way I am..
Now, he is gone... Real gone..
I had no one to watch movie with...
I had no one to share with me my sorrow or happiness...
I had no one to share with me all the pictures that I had took..
I had no one to give gifts..
My most important aniversary this jus in 5 days time, my Valentine Day is gone..
NO ONE to celebrate with me..
Wat about the ring on my hand??
Guess I will always wear it till I forget him ba..
My heart is bleeding now.. Bleeding hard now..
Is this wat I really wan??
I always want to had a break up with him.. I always cannot tolerate him..
But when this comes, i full of regretation..
Am I depending too much on him?
Am I realli love him too much?
Or this is just a norm for me?
Hais...
.I just can't forget you
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2:20 PM
I am so lost know.. REGINE REGINE TOLERATE TOLERATE!!!!
I am calming myslef down now!!! I feel like saying the word to him..... I CANNOT TOLERATE ANYMORE!!! THIS IS HELL TO ME!!!
y i had this kind of guy???
y is he so stuck-up???
y
y
y
y
his bloddy attidute!!!
His "beng" and "ugly" attidute!!!
How i wish i could leave him straight away!!!
But in inner-heart always stop me from doing that cause it is always full of regret!!
I hate myself!!, I hate myself to be like this...
Y he jus can't to be more considerate???
YYYYYYYYYYYYY
arghhghgh!!!!
Bursting out soon!!!!
i dun think i can live with him.. this is all a lie.. i am lying to myself and am i to him..
I always say things that could be forever but in my heart i know it is a lie...
I SIMPLY HATE HIS HACK CARE ATTIDUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I WANA LEAVE HIM RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ARGHHGHGGHG!@@#$%^&*()(*&^%$#@!#$%^&u*i(o)p
I am calming myslef down now!!! I feel like saying the word to him..... I CANNOT TOLERATE ANYMORE!!! THIS IS HELL TO ME!!!
y i had this kind of guy???
y is he so stuck-up???
y
y
y
y
his bloddy attidute!!!
His "beng" and "ugly" attidute!!!
How i wish i could leave him straight away!!!
But in inner-heart always stop me from doing that cause it is always full of regret!!
I hate myself!!, I hate myself to be like this...
Y he jus can't to be more considerate???
YYYYYYYYYYYYY
arghhghgh!!!!
Bursting out soon!!!!
i dun think i can live with him.. this is all a lie.. i am lying to myself and am i to him..
I always say things that could be forever but in my heart i know it is a lie...
I SIMPLY HATE HIS HACK CARE ATTIDUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I WANA LEAVE HIM RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ARGHHGHGGHG!@@#$%^&*()(*&^%$#@!#$%^&u*i(o)p
.I just can't forget you
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12:10 PM
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
It had been a long time since I came back here...
Well, this year new year wasn't that good and feels bored...
Last night was super super angry with baby.. Hais.. I jus dun understand...
He like to keep things away from me/ or rather, didn't inform me anything till I ask about it...
I mean y jus can't be more responsible a little bit?? 20yrs old le still like tat.. Watever the mum tells him, he doesn't inform me.. And ended, people though I know about it..
Just can't take it.. Sometime just feel like giving him a harsh scolding.. But after that I just feel a little hard pain for him being scolded by me..
Called him serveral times but just wouldn't pick up my call... Sms him also won't reply.. I know he is tired, and most probably fall aslp.. But jus can't understand, when this kind of thing happen he still can slp.. Arghhgg, going to burst out soon!!!
It had been a long time since I came back here...
Well, this year new year wasn't that good and feels bored...
Last night was super super angry with baby.. Hais.. I jus dun understand...
He like to keep things away from me/ or rather, didn't inform me anything till I ask about it...
I mean y jus can't be more responsible a little bit?? 20yrs old le still like tat.. Watever the mum tells him, he doesn't inform me.. And ended, people though I know about it..
Just can't take it.. Sometime just feel like giving him a harsh scolding.. But after that I just feel a little hard pain for him being scolded by me..
Called him serveral times but just wouldn't pick up my call... Sms him also won't reply.. I know he is tired, and most probably fall aslp.. But jus can't understand, when this kind of thing happen he still can slp.. Arghhgg, going to burst out soon!!!
.I just can't forget you
