A break through!!

Is this time for real??? Hais.. I HATE THIS FEELING!!! IT IS ALWAYS CONTRADICTING!!!

I feel that I had cheapen myself just to make him angry.. Jus to spike on him..
I am so wrong, so dam wrong..
I hate my mouth, hate my heart...

I hate my character, hate the way I am..

Now, he is gone... Real gone..

I had no one to watch movie with...
I had no one to share with me my sorrow or happiness...
I had no one to share with me all the pictures that I had took..
I had no one to give gifts..


My most important aniversary this jus in 5 days time, my Valentine Day is gone..
NO ONE to celebrate with me..

Wat about the ring on my hand??
Guess I will always wear it till I forget him ba..

My heart is bleeding now.. Bleeding hard now..
Is this wat I really wan??
I always want to had a break up with him.. I always cannot tolerate him..

But when this comes, i full of regretation..
Am I depending too much on him?
Am I realli love him too much?
Or this is just a norm for me?

Hais...