Hais..

Went out with Esther today, I guess if I continue to stay at home I will just BUST out!
Decided to cut my hair to get a new look .. wana get rid of all the bad things that happen right from the start of 2009..

People do believe that new year ned to cut hair.. So well, I just feel that all the bad luck are with me now.. From day 1 of 2009 till now, eveything is so unlucky..
- laptop spoiled
- hp gt little problem
- headach
- sick
- quarrel with him
- now, broke up

I wan to get rid of all this shit.. Maybe a shorter hair will let me feel lighter as my heart is having a weight now...

Decided to go to mac shop and see wheather can get anyting for him anot.. So decided to buy a mac caseing.. Dunno how to give him or the reason to give.. Duno should I wrap up or not.. Duno how I going to pass to him.. Hais.. Anniversary is this fri and now is gone.. But in my heart, that day is still my anniversary day..

Received sms from Joey and ask me to work.. But on V-day I am working.. Hais, anyway this yr also no v-day for me.. Also no one to celebrate with.. And esther wana to celebrate on that day.. Well, maybe I just work full shift ba..

Promise him that I would find a guy within 3 weeks, but i doubt I am able to do that.. I dun wan to cheat myself.. I still love him.. I dun wan to cheapen myself.

Problem 1: where should I go this fri?
Problem 2: How should I celebrate my solo anni?
Problem 3: How Do i pass him the gift?
Problem 4: Should I wrap it since he already know wat is it?
Problem 5: How about the book? Should I give him or Should I write it?
Problem 6: How is myV-day this year?

And I can feel that this time is for real.. Didn't even mention to anyone at all.. Till now no one know about us. Decided not to say till I can confirm with myself..

I FEEL SO LOST NOW!!!!